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marissa.
25 September 2006 @ 07:53 pm
today in the car, my dad told me he missed me.
then he asked if i still consider home my "safe place".
i didn't know what to tell him.
 
 
marissa.
17 September 2006 @ 04:20 pm
these arent my words. but i have to say theyre inspiring. &i agree.

I think that I’m violently sick of the whole body weight issue. Whatever happened to just wanting to be a healthy woman? Women with hips used to be revered and sought after because it meant you could give a man a healthy family. A woman with hips meant you were powerful. I mean, this goes for men too. What possible reason would you want to have an 8 pack, unless your career is in bodybuilding? I think that you should customize your lifestyle around what you love, and what your career and passions are. And believe me, if your passion is fine-tuning your body until there isn’t an ounce of jiggle on it, that is wonderful! I AM a woman with hips, and all that goes along with it. I am not necessarily an over weight girl, I believe that I am good enough for me. I have a “real” body, am proud of that, and have been trying to adopt a healthy lifestyle, while still leaving room for dark chocolate. Ha! The truth is, you should be confident and happy with yourself, do things for you, and not because some fashion magazine, or media, or parent, or peer says you should. We are targeted and told that we need to be bone skinny, with long thick hair, and plump lips, and model-like to be accepted into society. How many of you saw the MTV feature where a guy got calf implants? That’s a lot deeper than just wanting nice calves. Trust me guys, us women do not care about your calves.
Honestly, models are a rare body type, I have many friends that are models, and they all were born that way. There are also cases of anorexic models, which is just as tragic as any other woman who has anorexia. I also have friends that are big girls, and they like it that way. If you’re skinny or hippy by nature, be confident in all you are born with. Besides, every boyfriend I’ve ever had has always expressed to me that he wants something to hold onto. And, guys, girls want something to hold onto too. All ya need is love. John Lennon was smart. If a man or woman loves you, he or she loves all of you…anything less is not real.
We should not be controlled by what other people say is acceptable. WE as real women and men ARE acceptable. We look in the mirror everyday and take pride in what sets us apart from a Barbie and Ken doll. Having a perfect body and long flowing hair is a nice thought, but there are so many other things that are more important to be consumed by. Family; Being In Love; Music; Being the Next President and Taking Over The White House. Ha! I decided a while ago that I was going to try to eat healthy and eat when I’m hungry, but not count calories, and stress about whether I just had a bowl of ice cream or not. You do what you can, and get over it. I have many people I want to live for, I want to be healthy enough to play with my grandchildren someday, those are my reasons. Like I said, there are so many more important things then living in a vanity trap consumed with diets and whether or not you gained a few or lost a few pounds, whether you have a six pack, 8 pack, or like me, one pack (ha).
Kudos to Pink by-the-way for addressing in her new album “I’m Not Dead” the lack of ambition in women (mostly because girls are now raised to be consumed by their bodies and boys), and encouraging them to step up and become something more than just what’s “accepted”.
 
 
marissa.
24 August 2006 @ 11:07 pm
i was driving home from work today, &this car with blue-ish headlights was behind me the entire way. i kept thinking it was a cop &my heard kept skipping beats. FLASHBACK TO MONDAY. then i almost hit a deer. then the car decided to pass me on a turn in a no passing zone. i fucking hate drivers. &driving's not as fun as it used to be, either. stupidstupid me.
 
 
marissa.
22 August 2006 @ 02:27 pm
i'm a fuckup. &i don't know how to feel anymore. &i miss kat. &corinne. a lot.
 
 
marissa.
06 August 2006 @ 05:25 pm
the next two weeks are pretty much going to kick ass.
monday is dorney with crin.
wednesday is beach with jimmy.
friday is ? with nicole.
sunday is cape may until next sunday.
all that besides the usual friends <3
 
 
marissa.
24 July 2006 @ 08:36 am
i just got back from New Hampshire. I built a wheelchair ramp for an old man named Mandy. &i grew close to someone who truely inspires me &has helped me more than anyone. thanks to him, i'm on my way to being better. he gave me the hope i needed that i will be ok. yay for people who change your life!
 
 
marissa.
01 July 2006 @ 04:25 pm
i miss the ones the decorate my car.
& the ones i love & hardly get to ever see enough.
& i miss not getting in fights over every stupid thing & being trusted & not constantly followed & checked up on.
 
 
marissa.
13 May 2006 @ 08:45 am
what the hell. my life is so confusing. and frustrating. and CRAZY.
 
 
marissa.
08 May 2006 @ 05:54 am
AP biology exam in less than two hours.
today will not be able to be described as anything less than pure hell.
 
 
marissa.
07 May 2006 @ 10:49 am
yesterday = SATs.
SATs sucked.
yesterday was great, anyway.
thanks to a chosen few :)
it feels good to honestly be happy again.